Not The Biggest Loser

I just want to be…

I’m not entirely sure what’s going on with my body. I’ve been fluctuating up and down since that initial 3kg loss in 5 days. I don’t really understand. As of last weigh-in I’d put on 2 of the 3 something kilos I’d lost. And I can’t identify any difference in my eating. I don’t know what’s going on. I’m not eating perfectly 100% of the time, but I’m slipping up far less than I used to and I wasn’t putting on weight then. I just don’t know. The only difference I can identify is that I’m now pregnant. Even though I’m only 5 weeks, maybe that’s just what my body does? My stomach feels so bloated and huge.  It’s just silly sigh.

I have been continuing to read Jon Gabriel’s book. One of the thing he suggests is visualising yourself with the body you want. The problem I have with this is that I can’t. I actually can’t imagine myself with a smaller body. I can’t imagine how it would look, I can’t imagine how it would feel.  So my dear husband spent some time photoshopping my face on a body I would love to have. I’m not aiming for a size 8 or even a 10. I’ve always admired hte more curvy shapes on women and I think Jenifer Hudson has an incredibly feminine body. So here’s me with Jenifer Hudson’s body. I almost cried when I saw the finished product (despite my face looking a little large). I’m really hoping this imagine helps me to work towards a body I’ve never even come close to. Oh and rather cool that I’ve photoshopped myself onto the red carpet at the Grammys tee hee (with a fabulous tan I might add!)

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Ri said, November 30th, 2008 at 8:31 am

Loving the new look of your page… and the new you!!! I think this is a fabulous idea, I also have issues trying to visualise myself smaller as I’ve never been much smaller than I am now. Could I hire your hubbies services for my photo? Heheee.. Let me see.. whose body do I want? Cos I’m short, think I need to go for someone like Reece Witherspoon…. Actually Christina Ricci would be good. She can play me if they ever make a movie of my life. Although it would be bloody boring!

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Jen said, November 30th, 2008 at 10:32 am

*Wolf whistles* go you sexy thing.

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Nola said, November 30th, 2008 at 4:58 pm

Love the new look blog!! Damn!! You look hot!! That is a great way to get a “visual” on how it WILL be. I like that colour on you too:) I think the extra kilos are probably just your body “settling” into it’s new hormone routine….just whatever you are doing don’t stop!

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